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“Sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together.” -Marilyn Monroe
I must admit my life thus far cannot be lumped into the category of "Perfect" nor "Terrible". It hasn't been easy yet it wasn't excruciatingly terrible either. Since 2004 i have accumulated a select "Handful" of friends, that have become roots in my tree of life. (You know who you are ;-D) Don't get it? Let me quote a great comedian on this one...
"Some people are meant to come into your life for a lifetime, some for only a season and you got to know which is which. And you're always messing up when you mix those seasonal people up with lifetime expectations.
I put everybody that comes into my life in the category of a tree. Some people are like leaves on a tree. When the wind blows, they're over there... wind blow that way they over here... they're unstable. When the seasons change they wither and die, they're gone. That's alright. Most people are like that, they're not there to do anything but take from the tree and give shade every now and then. That's all they can do. But don't get mad at people like that, that's who they are. That's all they were put on this earth to be. A leaf.
Some people are like a branch on that tree. You have to be careful with those branches too, cause they'll fool you. They'll make you think they're a good friend and they're real strong but the minute you step out there on them, they'll break and leave you high and dry.
But if you find 2 or 3 people in your life that's like the roots at the bottom of that tree you are blessed. Those are the kind of people that aren't going nowhere. They aren't worried about being seen, nobody has to know that they know you, they don't have to know what they're doing for you but if those roots weren't there, that tree couldn't live.
A tree could have a hundred million branches but it only takes a few roots down at the bottom to make sure that tree gets everything it needs. When you get some roots, hold on to them but the rest of it... just let it go. Let folks go." - Tyler Perry
However, at this point, I have seperated (Physically) from my roots; and whats more is I have decided to make this a permanent change for a while. It kills me that those i have cared about are not with me anymore, but in return i have found what may be the most loving, caring person i have ever met. Its like a fairytale.
I am torn between 2 worlds and I wouldn't give either up for all the stars in the sky.
My Family and Friends....and My Love.
I knew the day would come when i would have to "Leave the Nest" but i never imagined it would be like this. Not when all these changes are happening, right when they would need me most, I decide to stay.
Of course the unconditional love and support i receive from my close friends and family have been enough for me to try and walk this new course of life with my head up high.
I feel as if my heart is breaking. This is the closing of this Chapter of Life and i just didn't want it to end so soon. There is so much left to say and do. Why has time left me behind. Am I the only one that feels this way?
It doesn't matter. All I know, is that somewhere deep down I feel like im doing the right thing....for me.
And i know in my heart that my friends and family will be waiting for me when i return...
I <3 My Friends...More than anything....Thanks for being there!
